A Certain Day and Age

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I love this song. :)

Source: cristinaserrano

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lovelinsey:

Everyone: watch this movie

Source: lovelinsey

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enrike-zimmerman:

Oliver: “Look it is lonely out here so you better learn how to talk with me.”

Source: enrike-zimmerman

For someone who claims to be a pacifist and avoid conflicts, I have too much emotion to keep myself from saying stupid things that end up engaging conflicts. It just…comes out I guess. As much as I love to talk people it is a double edged sword. I can express myself…and then I hear the stutter. Then I have to instill more confidence in myself to keep talking. Not like that with texting or typing. It can flow, I have free reign over clear speech. I have a false sense of confidence, confidence I should have used when talking personally to you all. So yes, I am a sort of coward and I am sorry for that.

2013-05-17

Truth #1

I cannot say I like any one person anymore. My emotions are just so off the fritz that any interaction I have with a girl I imagine spending my life with them. And it is more or less an idealistic reality with them. I even imagine things getting bad in it too. And all of this thinking takes place in the span of seconds, so all I am basically seeing are snippets of lives that I want, that I could possibly have if it was not for these other lives, or choices, that are a possibility. Every time I have these moments I just want to break down and just belt out that I could be happy and maybe have some someone that would accept me for all of me and my flaws. But I just cannot bring myself to accept anything. I cannot be in a couple as much as I want to. And I have to play the film reel every time I think I might have a chance at “love” because I already friggin’ used the love word a lot, and if I really did care then I would have held up the promise that “love” entails. Rough 2 days.

2013-05-06

Happy-Go-Lucky

I felt bad for the driving instructor who was so rigid throughout the film with the girl, but then it turned out that he had actually liked her all along and when he finally told her it was more of a question of why she had to torture him every darn session because of her awesome quirky personality. The poor guy duped himself and I understand him a bit more every day. He did not truly feel love is what I am guessing. Man you can draw a lot of parallels with movies and tv shows.

2013-04-30

misshadeharia:

Seeing a woman punched has never made me so happy.

Justice Leauge Issue Four from August 1987

Source: misshadeharia

2013-04-26

jaytheillustrator:

True story #Hawkguy #Hawkeye

Source: jaytheillustrator

2013-04-21

These Days

Gosh!! Just these past few days have been horrible. Okay, well maybe not just the past few days, more like the past month. I feel like I am going nowhere. I am stuck in a rut and I am insane. I am insane for not having changed my habits yet. I still cannot seem to change!!!! The past 3 years have basically been downhill and yet I could not bring myself to get off of autopilot. I have done nothing with my life so far. College…I know that Community College sounds lame, but in all actuality it saves a lot of money. Compared to my classmates though, that means jack-s&!^. I try and rationalize it by saying that I still managed to get accepted by 3 colleges, but then I think of the colleges that did reject me. And it is all my fault. I stopped caring, truly caring for my work and my academics. I let myself go and I hide it all behind smiles and sunshine. I blame myself for a lot of things and I sometimes scare myself with just imagining ways to just dull it out, to just let go completely and turn to just other ways of dealing with not caring. Fortunately my threshold for dealing with self-deprecating comments is very high. Anyways, this does help with the stories I am writing, so there is the bright side to it I guess. :)